3.13.11
this is in response to your motivation post. i read it after walking in the door from of day full of shopping for rose’s party. i was physically exhausted and stressed. your words pierced me. in fact, i’m still mulling them over in prayer.
this is what was on my heart after i read your post and took a moment for discernment, prior to my break down…
i have been in the same place you describe. it’s happiness was fleeting. i fear that i may return to that place (that was far removed from Him) so i turn and run the other way, thinking i will find Him there. instead, i run right past Him. it’s a different place but the same result, it becomes all about me.
satan is loving it. the spiritual warfare has begun. i do not enter battle on my own. i have learned this the hard way. i call upon our blessed mother.
- i desire to be thin.
- He calls me to be healthy.
- that means moderate exercise and a healthy intake of food – not excessive daily exercise outside of my state of life and no starvation.
- He calls me to be healthy.
- i desire to get out of this stage in my journey and move onto a maintenance stage. a stage which i perceive to be an easier road.
- He calls me to embrace where i am at and find Him in all the struggles.
- that means that i must seek to glorify Him in everything i do. this includes my failures as well as my successes. they are all his. he is pleased with my faithfulness to Him alone.
- He calls me to embrace where i am at and find Him in all the struggles.
- i desire to gain order and control of my life and family.
- He calls me to surrender it all to Him.
- that means that i must not seek a worldly standard of success but embrace my crosses. i must be a joyful servant and be right ordered. my every moment should revolve around Him. i should seek his face in those around me.
- He calls me to surrender it all to Him.
i desire to…
- learn how to desire only His will for me.
- be content where i am.
- find JOY (Him) in all i’m surrounded with.
- live each moment as though it were my last so that i can make it HOME!