Do not conform yourselves to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect. Romans 12:2
It’s that time of year again….to plan for the next school year. This has been an anxious time for me most recently with a new high schooler. All the self doubt started to creep in; Am I doing enough, should I attend another conference, will she be better off elsewhere, must I enroll in a program, is public school (AKA charter school) our financial reprieve….. I trust that I’m following our Lord’s call to disciple our children at home but darn it, where’s my blue print? Drill them into your children. Speak of them at home and abroad, whether you are busy or at rest. DT 6:7
My initial tendencies were to pile on the academics and extracurricular. However, I was called to surrender these things and detach from desires and worldly ties. At one time it was for self denial. More recently, it has been out of financial necessity. This, I believe, has been one of the biggest test: will I trust in Him for everything, including schooling? If my family does not have the financial means to sign up for all the extracurricular activities, enroll in the best program, or buy the litany of prescribed texts, should we accept it as a gift from God or should we seek reprieve from mammon to fulfill our desires? I trust it is a gift and He has made our path clearer to choose Him. “No one can serve two masters. He will either hate one and love the other, or be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.” Mt 6:24
Now if I only I could completely TRUST and SUBMIT EVERYTHING to Him!!!! Trust in the Lord with all your heart, on your own intelligence rely not. Proverbs 3:5
This includes school, our own intelligence, finances….EVERYTHING!!!! Why has this been so difficult for me? I’ve cheated our Lord. I’ve given just enough, right where it’s comfortable and trusted in myself for the rest. My goal of homeschooling is to take my children to a place of refuge where they can fall in love with Jesus, with training and instruction befitting the Lord. Eph 6:4
How is this possible, if I’m not under complete instruction from Our Lord? I trust He will provide the grace but I know He calls me to more and I desire to answer His call, immediately.
I’m making a commitment to give Him everything and I’m choosing now!!!! I’m not going to wait till our next school year to implement what has been placed on my heart. I will make my move, one step closer to Our Heavenly Father and I will take my family and we will not look back. …”No one who sets a hand to the plow and looks to what was left behind is fit for the kingdom of God.” Lk 9:62
This is a new day. PRAY FOR US!
SANCTA MARIA ORA PRO NOBIS!!!
